After pressure from some folks who aren't on facebook (ahem, mom) I am revisiting this blog. I feel bad that I haven't updated recently, but when it comes down to it I just haven't had it as a priority. I'm sorry for the two people who actually look at this blog (again, mom). This summer has FLOWN by. I mean FLOWN. We are trying to fit it all in, and sometimes things just have to give. Like photo sharing. Like vacuuming. Like walking the dog. It's not perfect, but it's the best I can do.
We just got back from vacation and I have a lot of things swirling around in my brain. Amidst the chaos of laundry and toys, my heart is heavy. It's hard to live away from your family, and after a visit with them I always have mixed feelings. Whether it's intentional or not, I think my family 'blames' me that I don't live near by. It's hard to make a life in a new city while constantly being pulled by your old city. I feel like I am dating a boyfriend that my family doesn't like--I don't want to say anything bad about St. Louis because they will just say "I told you so....move back to Florida". And there are a lot of bad things about St. Louis. In the last three months my car has been stolen, returned, and was broken into. Annoying, expensive inconveniences that make life more difficult, and possibly wouldn't have happened had we lived somewhere else. There are also wonderful things about St. Louis... a fantastic community of people at our church (Riverside), amazing new friends and great job opportunities for Zar and myself. While this may not be the first place we would have chosen to live, we are making it work. Sort of.
I have an ever growing list of improvements. Physical improvements for our house, spiritual improvements for myself, parenting improvements for Zar and I. I keep tally of these things and I cross them off periodically as I am able. So I am adding to my list: Be better about sharing the joys of our family and Try to enjoy where I am, right now.
Liz
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